Rhythm & Flow
I have been praying for God to open up my creative energy so that I would feel a sense of rejuvenation around my passions and any new direction I am supposed to shift towards. I’ve truly been feeling very unmotivated and ill-prepared to move towards any projects, new or old, that would dare creep up in my spirt! I have to be honest and say that it has been really refreshing not to be in the energy of chasing a dream, passion, vision or attempting to outdo something I have previously done. I’m the queen of thoughts turning into deeds, turning in to dust…….rinse and repeat. I’ve had more business ideas and ventures than I’d care to admit and quite frankly, nearing 43 makes me completely adamant about not being that person ever again. Besides the burnout, not seeing what you have felt so sure about turn out the way you would want it to, can create a level of self-doubt that stops you from attempting even the surest of feats. And then there’s the BUT…
This “weird” place I’ve been in has made me feel stagnant and unproductive because we live in the world of HUSTLE & GRIND. We live in a climate of BUILD BUILD BUILD. It falsely makes us believe that if we aren’t there, something is wrong with us and we are not properly contributing to society! That myth has kept me enslaved to myself for so long that I haven’t had a lot of real peace with the amount of time I’ve been standing in this spot. Almost like the guilt made me feel “lost” instead of valuing all that the Hustle & Grind culture afforded me.
Chasing myself had me exhausted in a real way. How many more things could I do to make myself feel better or more accomplished? Every new goal making me forget about the ones previously accomplished. The roses grew, blossomed beautifully and died long ago and I intentionally forgot to smell them because I was on another side of the garden dealing with the soil and watering new seeds planted. What a disservice I did to myself in the energy I allowed to consume me.
Moment Of Truth: I’ve had to resolve the issues I brought upon myself by attempting to one up the latest level. Being completely real about how much you can set yourself back in a mindstate of grind is one of the hardest things a person can do. Correcting my mistakes while recalibrating….forgiving myself for it….healing from it….it’s a real journey of life. I feel blessed to have taken enough time away from it all to resolve that I no longer want to be a catalyst for my own heartache nor do I want to feel in competion with myself. Down time is so needed for self reflection and if I didn’t honor that moment I would never have had enough space to see it for myself.
My Personal Commitment: I promised this would be the year of my Rhythm & Flow. I am not outdoing me anymore. I just want to make sure that all things that are done, are done with the best of intentions and the guidance of my Creator.
It's been almost two years of just BEING, LIVING and FLOWING….Without realizing it, I’ve been redefining myself and what is true for me surrounding my idea of success. I will always be the girl with something in her heart she wants to do. I can accept that about myself. However, it is more important for me now that I don’t run behind everything I feel….that I sit until it is something I know God wants from me…and then I can pull out the tools He gives to accomplish them properly…appreciating what the “success” of it is for me! I’m no longer setting my barometer by what others deem success to be. I want only what it means for me and how it shows up in my life so I can value it as such.
TRUE STORY: You never have to rationalize any period of time in your life where you want to rest, where you feel less motivated than you once did or where you just don’t have the same capacity for the things that once made you feel on fire down in your soul. It’s okay to give yourself a pass and rest because the quiet moments are when updates to your vision are deposited or an entirely new direction is given. Only there can you truly assess where you MUST change, grow and shift. So, in the most cliché of terms, give yourself the grace and space to receive new information and from here on out, embrace your Rhythm & Flow.
Peace & Positive Vibes
Coach Nita
